hm...  so i need to do some thinking lol

basically that sums up my day haha

i let my emotions make too many decisions for me

but to some extent i think thats probably good, i will always be myself and always honest...

i just may get hurt alot....  we shall see

for the most part tho, i really like life right now... i like getting to know new people

duuuudddddeeeee  i love having my license!  :D   

hmmm... cant wait for summer,  government trip should be fun :)

lets see... i have figured out a couple of things...

1.  things go better when you dont think about them

2. i do the opposite of that and over-analize myself into oblivion

3. i dont actually trust very easily, but i forgive way too easily and care far too much

4.  me and shasta are on the same page about

    jesus wanting us to be nuns ahaha :p

hm... so this will sound completely cliche or dorky or w/e   but

my mom txted me this bible verse, and for once i actually thought about it

lol, anyways it says "be as clever as a serpent and as innocent as a dove"

i really like it.  innocence isn't always naivety.  being clever is good, but it shouldnt be used

against others.  you think of two types of people, and normally the clever ones use it to

their own gain, often at the expense of others, whereas the innocent kind ones are taken advantage of.  i havent met many people who are clever but not manipulative, because normally if one isnt self protective it is assumed that you cant defend yourself, which isnt true.  theres a difference between losing and choosing not to fight.   anyways, im not saying im really either of those, and im probably a little self protective, but hopefully i can work towards the latter.