hmmm.... im combining what i learned in history with what i learned in marriage and family... and i have to say, that i think if people would combine how human relationships work with how we deal with real life situations more, society might actually progress...

anyways

so we're talking about genocide, which is actually pretty interesting 

but the method that we use for dealing with it is retarded.

do you honestly think that punishing the person who did the crime... after the crime has already been committed  will 

1.  somehow make up for the human loss of life.... 239 + 1 doesnt = 0

its just another person dead

2.  prevent it from happening again?

there is a difference between punishment and disipline, this is where marriage and family comes in.   punishment is a nonrestorative, pain inflicting, and loss causing method of dealing with a problem.  disipline is directly connected to the event, restorative and helps the person learn from the mistake....

guess which one actually works, and guess which one is used most often.

punishment results in retaliation,  retaliation just results in more punisment... which then again result with retaliation....BRILLIANT IDEA

not so much.....

if you actually want to solve and prevent the problem, you have to get to the base.

is the base of genocide killing? no, if you wait till the killing starts then it is already too late.  the base problem is intolerance. for this reason, the punishment of one genocide will never prevent another from happening.  every situation is different and intolerance is so deeply imbedded that one will never see what they are doing as bad, they think that the other person deserves to die.  it is a lack of belief in base human worth.  if you can get people to see that their enemies are human and at the core have the same emotions and fears as yourself, one has eliminated the entire reason for genocide.

i would say that restorative justice and prevention are key.  yes, they take longer and yes maybe for a while more people would die, but over the course of time our world might actually get better, instead of continuing in a fear driven cycle.

and now i am laughing at the stupidity of the phrase "and then i realized this was a life or death situation"    ahahahahaha   really?   oh animal planet... never ceases to amaze me :)

if you want a slightly depressive outlook on people and life in general.... 

go look up turkish monarchs of the 1600's.... 

and russian monarchs before the 1800's...

and if you feel like you need more, go for

erzebet bathory of hungary (1575)

and vlad of walachia (1448)

hey there :)  im loving this weekend

friday was super fun and i got to hang out with alot of different people

saturday was amazing haha i got some of my favorite things in one day lol

i got to go rockclimbing and later hang out with friends :D

i went to church and actually had alot of fun, thanks :)

then i went out to joshua tree with mi familia and got to do alittle rockclimbing

which is always fun... the entire park was pretty much empty so it was even better

then i got back just in time to go have a lord of the rings marathon!  ahaha yea i know

im super cool ;)  but i had lots of fun lol they are some interesting people and make me

laugh pretty much non stop haha.... i didnt get any sleep at all, and am currently running on 

caffeine.... oh joy... addiction!  anyways, we'll see what else happens... no school monday :D

..............

hm...  so i need to do some thinking lol

basically that sums up my day haha

i let my emotions make too many decisions for me

but to some extent i think thats probably good, i will always be myself and always honest...

i just may get hurt alot....  we shall see

for the most part tho, i really like life right now... i like getting to know new people

duuuudddddeeeee  i love having my license!  :D   

hmmm... cant wait for summer,  government trip should be fun :)

lets see... i have figured out a couple of things...

1.  things go better when you dont think about them

2. i do the opposite of that and over-analize myself into oblivion

3. i dont actually trust very easily, but i forgive way too easily and care far too much

4.  me and shasta are on the same page about

    jesus wanting us to be nuns ahaha :p

hm... so this will sound completely cliche or dorky or w/e   but

my mom txted me this bible verse, and for once i actually thought about it

lol, anyways it says "be as clever as a serpent and as innocent as a dove"

i really like it.  innocence isn't always naivety.  being clever is good, but it shouldnt be used

against others.  you think of two types of people, and normally the clever ones use it to

their own gain, often at the expense of others, whereas the innocent kind ones are taken advantage of.  i havent met many people who are clever but not manipulative, because normally if one isnt self protective it is assumed that you cant defend yourself, which isnt true.  theres a difference between losing and choosing not to fight.   anyways, im not saying im really either of those, and im probably a little self protective, but hopefully i can work towards the latter.    

hm... well today didnt go so well

and yet im in a good mood?  hmm 

im super excited cause this photographer who does

senior portraits and ads and stuff asked me to be one of her representatives

so i get free pictures and go in her ads and and if i refer people i get money :D  

which means you should all go to her instead of house of portraits... 

she takes better pics anyways

anyways i have photoshoot next wed.  :D  yay

that made my day slightly better

beach vespers tomorrow!   lol i wish we were getting our year books

but oh well.... itll still be fun. 

you should all give me a rose ;)  haha

anyways then saturday and sunday ..... disneyland with debbie!!!!!!!   whoohoo   

it should be a fun weekend

*sigh*  

today sucked... 

im glad i have a couple of people who are close to me

ily  thanx shasta and debbie :) you always care when 

im upset...

idk... my mom is probably one of the smartest people i know... but

i really didnt want the relization she brought about...  everyone was right

... i was wrong, oh well... i shall get over it

seeing things for what they are sometimes hurts, but it helps us grow

and is always better for us in the end, i dont know what to do now though

sigh... again lol :/   

its weird, because nothing new actually happened today, i just came to realize alot

................................

well today was good and bad....

i did horrible on my chem quiz... which makes me mad because i understand it really well...

i just make stupid mistakes but all my work is right... ugh  

then blood drive... that was actually pretty fun...

hmm...  someone made my day better :)  but then they also made it worse

 ... people are confusing :/

well... random thoughts running through my head 

i was pretty out of it today....   i almost fell asleep in history lol

um i got to be the last person to finish my chem lab....  but i think i did ok on our quiz

well.... i get how to do everything anyways, if i fail its just because i tend to make lame mistakes on the calculator....

hmmmm  have you ever thought about how ugly of a species humans are?  i mean for being the most appearance conscious of all the animal species we definitely are the weirdest looking...  we're furless pinkish things that walk on two stick-like limbs which are accompanied by two floppy arms that hang disproportionately at our sides and have one small tuff of stringy fur comming out the top of our heads .... i wonder what other animals think when they see us  :p lol

oh what i was saying earlier about left/right brain is that they did this test where they found a guy where the left and right brain werent connected and basically  the left brain can only organize facts but has no was to apply them to situations so it just makes up stuff to justify it... basically the left brain will lie to itself about the world and see things that arent there just to fit the facts.... hmmmm   anyways im not saying only right brain is anybetter, but they have to be equally used together, the problem is that school only focuses on the left brain, particularly standardized testing and all it actually tests is our regurgitation ability which is stupid because what good are facts if you dont know how to apply them.... knowledge without understanding is useless.  it just reminded me because mrs yapshing got frusterated because our class was just spitting out answers from the notes instead of understanding the big picture, of course i was half asleep today and wasnt seeing either the big or small picture ;)   

it wasnt a good day, but there wasnt anything to make it bad, life is just bleh right now...  

the weekend will be such a relief :)

hm... my entire body just feels like its gonna collapse today

*sigh* i probably need more sleep and stuff

everyone was sorta eeh today, and when my friends are being grrr too, 

its not such a great mix...

i worry about some of them

anyways i need to find a ride home from school tomorrow cause my parents are ditching

me and im super cool and dont have my license yet...  

one more week... unless i fail, which i may lol   

i feel like my head is fading in and out of consciousness so yea imma go sleep now... possibly ;)

well... today was immensely boring
i didnt see very many people at school.... maybe everyone is sick
haha hopefully i dont get it... again
and then i got a lecture from my mom... ugh :(
she likes physcology far too much and tends to "help" or correct me
in my ways of acting or thinking before i even do them, and i reallly hate it grrrr...
apparently im "too guarded with my emotions" and stuff like that
...it was just a pretty lame day in general
anyways, hopefully tomorrow will be better

dude, im excited for beach vespers :) idk why, maybe i just like the beach... anyways it should be fun :p oooooh.... vespers this friday too huh?

...oh, but this morning i did learn some interesting stuff the effects of early childhood development on right vs. left brain dominance and how it changes how people veiw and deal with relationships.... ehhhhh ill talk about it tomorrow :D

wow, i had alot of people ask me if i was ok today haha
idk nothings really wrong, but nothings good... therefore its bad haha
and i think so much that i end up just confusing my self more ahhh  haha

anyways...  

in response to jordi, i see nothing wrong with the ideas of communism and socialism, because the base idea is great, the problem is that when attempted they tend to turn into cruel dictatorships....  

**i thought i should mention that i realize that with the exception of my values and what goes on in my head i am no better than the rest of the world, which makes me a hypocrite too,   but at least i think .... just haven't figured out the solution yet :)

well.... i start out all of these with that hahaha   anyways, i was thinking about intelligence today and it really bothers me that people consider others to be of different levels of "intelligence"  because it sorta messes with the whole idea of base human worth.  i understand that as we go on in life, our choices form us and do influence the way we think, so yes we develop intelligence in different areas, the idea that one way is valued more than another is retarded.  it sorta translates to jobs,  take  a farmer and a doctor,  which does society value more?  the doctor.  now imagine life with out doctors.... yes, we would probably die younger.   now imagine life without anyone to produce food.... we'd die in a couple of weeks.   so why is it that we value one more than the other?  it really bothers me.   i went with my sisters class on a field trip, and the tour guide pointed to a field where people were picking some vegetable and said " thats why you stay in school, so you can do something "important" with your life"  ....   wow, i wanted to slap him, what good is education if all it does is produce ignorant people...

no one would honestly admit it, but this society is horrified by the idea of actual equality, imagine what would happen if everyone had the same amount.... we'd all have next to nothing... theres something wrong with a society that accepts and embraces that.  we look down on the people who make our life possible, and somehow think that they deserve less than us? ....  

there is something very very wrong with all of this.....

well...  campout was  mediocrely interesting :)   

i like watching people interact .... 

its always funny when you think it over    

hmmm...  you see the worst of people when youre around them for 

3 days but then again you probably see some of the best haha

but wow, i was a little dissappointed with how some of my opinions 

of people changed.

 youd think that by being someone who has a brain and seemingly thinks some of the time, someone would be able to see the obvious, but apparently you can be thoughtful about some things and still be blinded by incredibly shallow things

when you think of people who seem to contemplate the big issues of the world, you'd sorta hope theyd get the basics down first.... 

although i suppose i really shouldnt be the judge of that considering i probably do it too and just dont see it...

hm...there were a couple of people who changed my opinion of them for the better though :)   although that may mean their opinions of me changed for the worse haha 

we shall see ;)