hola :D   

party last night... ehhh, dj sucked lol

ive decided i hate indecisive people, and flakey people

just so ya know, anyways... 

i should be coreographing 

for this cheer clinic im teaching.... 

which by the way you should all go to!

so yea, ill do that... and im making a dress its purple  yep 

and helping my dad make a swim deck for the boat :D

im in a pretty tranquil chill mood today which is always good

well....  i went to church today and sabbath school was immensely boring but afterwards i went to my parents sabbath school and ended up argueing with mrs. shilts husband for an hour and a half about all those base theological issues...that was interesting but he got mad and told me i shouldnt pick at the weaknesses in his arguments.... which doesnt make sense particularly since hes a lawyer.... haha  

....... 

if i dont find something else to do, party tonight :D

except i need a ride, ugh we'll see how this works out lol

i was right, i feel much better :)  sleep always helps haha

like i said, i like mornings 

happy sabbath :D

.......

well.... i wanted to go running, it always makes me feel better but unfortunately its 9:37 and ill die or something like that according to my parents...  its weird, i feel exauhsted and like i want to scream at the same time lol... music is currently keeping my sane,  i think im gonna go sleep...  ill feel better when i wake up, i like mornings, you get to start over :)  goodnight

...so today was pretty much one of those days where you feel like life is hopeless...   

i miss everyone in oregon :(  especially sande, i got to talk to her today though and it made me feel alittle better, but i miss the simplicity from when i lived there, but then i realize that even if i went back it wouldnt be like that anymore.... 

 

Maybe all this just comes with getting older which if you think about it is depressing 

because we dont really move forward as we get older, we learn to be defensive and suspicious and we're taught prioritize things that will never make us happy instead of realizing that its the very simplest things that have always brought us joy. 

 why?  does that make any sense?  

....no... we should be figuring life out as we grow older and enjoying it instead of corrupting the good that was already given us by trying to prepare to live some amazing life we'll never actually start.

and... heck yes! debbie mentioned me in her blog!  not in a very nice way but whatever....and i am NOT naturally brunette!   hahaha

.... party this weekend, that should be fun, but i need to find a ride...

..... i made a blog.... yep  by the way a katydid is a bug :)   ask shasta lol

anyways  today was pretty good and bad in a couple of ways

lunch was fun, i got to hang out with an oldish friend and he's pretty awesome and i was like, wow i missed hanging out with him and then 3 minutes later i wanted to kill him ahaha  hes an idiot  but i think ill forgive him. 

anyways recently im learning not to trust anyone, which isnt a good thing....